That's really how I felt going to BLC tonight for the fifth year anniversary. It is really like going home and the welcome from everyone also made it extra special for me. I hope all of our guests got to feel that too. The arrangments had all been done beautifully and I am very grateful to all that pitched in while I was able to have my break. The worship service was exactly what I needed tonight after a stressful week and have been feeling under spiritual attack lately. I don't mind saying that this tough aussie shed a few tears at various points. I only asked the lord this morning if he is hardening my heart like Ramses and I guess tonight he gave me my answer. ( I know that sounds a bit heretical but it's the truth lah)
My colleague who came reminded me just how young a lot of the flock is and he wasn't referring to the baby boom. I guess I tend to forget that these days since everyone just fit's together so nicely. Admittedly I feel a pang of sadness that padwan Chin Hor is going away for a while and when I analyse it my feelings are a bit fatherly so I guess deep down I recognise the age gap. Isn't achieving that kind of ties what Church is all about ? One of the guests spoke about the little things that matter tonight and not the numbers game and this is one of those little things to my way of thinking. We should share those little successes with each other and those beyond our house since that is what growing in Christ is a part of.
The gift ceremony also showed me just how willing our parts of the body are to pitch in and help, there were a lot of gifts because there were a lot of helpers and volunteers. Again these are not necessarily big things but each little part helps the other and in the end the whole body benefits. I chatted with Sivin on the way out about how it felt to come back and how different it felt to attend Church in QLD. I realise just how much my way of thinking and feeling has changed since we have been at BLC and I know I can never go back to the way it was before. *grins* that is growth isn't it ? So you don't need an epihany to change you at all. Just like those big boulders that water keeps dripping on God keeps chipping away at us to expose what is underneath. Again small drips can move mountains given enough time.
You know I still feel drunk even though I did not touch a drop today - water really can become wine when it is drunk with our Lord....
Happy Birthday BLC
Prost! I drink with you too brother ... and resonate with yoour whole post!
Posted by: Sivin Kit | August 07, 2005 at 06:40 AM